2026
June Journey
And where is my LIFE going now?
Life continues to unfold at breakneck speed.
Will I get to the top in my June Journey?
Vibrational Tools
2-IN-1 Beauty Bar Facial Massager
Vibration around the ears and throat and face
initially helped with pain.
These devices are quick and easy to use.
However, too much was not helpful.
And that’s precisely what happened.
Too much vibration, too strong or the wrong frequency?
for my glossopharyngeal neuroma / nerve problem.
This is called FLARE!
In many ways, this experience was reminiscent
of the EMSculpt vibration trigger.
It took several weeks to realize that this strong vibrational frequency actually released scar tissue in the hip graft
… in one treatment. However, I have not returned to experience this again!
So, back to shimmering laser light –
nanometers of vibration.
Cold-laser light is very gentle –
a shimmering sensation rather than a strong vibration.
This experience with these vibrational tools has been a time of learning –
to NOT utilize strong vibration.
And did this ‘flare’ allow my osteopath to access the ‘strain’ pattern in a different way…since it was in his treatment after this vibrational ‘upset’
that I was instantly aware of a shooting ‘sensation….vibration?’
during the treatment.
This vibratory sensation ascended from my fusion scar (where he was lightly touching) straight through this area of my throat and into the left side of my head …as well as down my left leg into my foot.
He was also VERY aware of this ‘whole body strain pattern’ –
his labeling of what he palpates.
I have never experienced this ‘shooting vibration’
during any cranial osteopathic treatment before.
Amazing interaction between two people….
having someone touch your body and illicit this kind of response
AND be there with you in awareness.
This is what Cranial Osteopathy is about.
This is what gives me confidence and strength to move forward through pain.
The Body knows how to Heal.
The Unforseen
Thirty-nine years of Calico kitty cats!
June brings the unanticipated …
GRIEF
Boo – 20 years old
1987 – 2007
Boo was one of many kittens born
to our family.
My daughter cuddled her in her arms minutes after she arrived.
When Boo said farewell many years later, my daughter gave me a new baby calico kitten. I named her KiKi;
my ‘grandmother’ name is CiCi.
My granddaughter was four years old
at the time. She turned 22 this week -five days after KiKi said goodbye
on June 5, 2026.
KiKi – 18 years old
2008 – 2026
Unfortunately, equilibrium and balance have not been restored in our mother-daughter relationship over the years.
The passing of my kitty cat brought back many memories that I cherish.
KiKi’s death has left me feeling very lonely because not only my kitty cat
but also my daughter and granddaughter are no longer a part of my life.
Multiple layers of grief
– calico kitty cats
– estrangement of daughter and granddaughter …a living death
– ancestral death
my grandmother Martha Hazel Vicars [5.6.83 – 3.11.20]
and child (Lila Jane) during childbirth [3.11.1920]
Maternal generations of grief for over 100 years.
Do I carry this generational grief?
Jin Shin Jyutsu ®
Jin Shin is once again taking a leading role
in my health adventure…beneath the surface.
I have a weekly Saturday appointment. My experience is one of deep-relaxation, to the depth of sleep at times and other times awareness in that middle state of waking and sleeping.
My reasoning has been that, pain or no pain, this deep relaxation
is healing for any body. This helps settle my body’s response/reaction to cranial osteopathic change/treatment.
My own self-help practice can induce deep relaxation as well
– but not to the level of my practitioner!
The last three treatments exemplify the power of this modality: May 30, June 6 and June 13.
– The May 30 treatment was outlined in May – the “You are Safe” experience. The day after treatment can present intense reactivity – which it did. The throat pain was the most intense I have ever experienced…crying on the phone with my friends
and wondering if I could even go to sleep.
And I did go to sleep – nine hours of not waking up!
This was extraordinary…and is becoming common in my osteopathic treatment reactions as well as with Jin Shin:
the best and the worst.
This is most difficult to walk through. On the other side,
I am learning to be less emotionally reactive to the ‘worst’
and to not necessarily expect the ‘best’ to always be present.
Knowing that my body CAN be in this ‘good’ place gives me
the courage and grace to continue to walk on this path.
– The June 6 treatment was not as significant
with the ‘best’ and the ‘worst’.
– The June 13 treatment was remarkable and personified my ‘Extremes’ – going from deep sleep to pain while lying on the table during treatment. Deeply relaxed, going in and out of sleep, suddenly the sharp pain in the throat started
and changed my level of awareness instantly.
I asked Alice what had just happened …what flow she was doing?
She had changed the flow and facilitated a release.
As always, she was barely touching me and I was asleep.
What just happened while I was asleep?
This has happened before during sleep many times
…. arousal from a deep sleep into pain.
Occurring before, during and after
my reaction/remembrance of trauma at some level of consciousness that is NOT accessible during waking hours,
what effect will this have on my autonomic nervous system
going forward?
In the aftermath, I realize the ‘sleep’ issue has once again manifested during treatment and is HUGE…
and again reinforces a level of consciousness issue in my case.
And I wonder how this ‘triggering’ with stabilization
of pulses/energy AT THE SAME TIME
will affect the pain and fluid response in the upcoming weeks?
Unfortunately, I walked out of her treatment with pain.
According to her, my deep pulses/flow
had stabilized and were very strong.
As we talked, I became acutely aware that the fusion scar on my back was talking loudly as well. Recently, my local osteopath and my PT have also been ‘drawn’ to this scar during treatment.
And my Santa Cruz osteopath has also recently had her
hot laser treating these scars as well.
Just last week, my PCP, having listened to my stories about these treatments, pulled out a silver spray that he utilizes for treating chronic infections. Many times he has discussed
how infections ‘hide’ in scar tissue, morph over the years
and travel in the body.
Four local practitioners are being drawn to treat the fusion
and hip graft scar as well as my Santa Cruz osteopath!
I am thankful that my PCP is an acupuncturist: I call Jin Shin ‘touch acupuncture’ since it utilizes the same meridians.
My local osteopath is familiar with Jin Shin as well, having taken Mary Burmeister’s courses with her in the early 1980’s.
In addition, my Phoenix osteopath knows Alice –
he was her referral a year ago. He is aware that I have utilized
Jin-Shin ‘Self Help’ flows for many years
The Main Central Vertical Flow and the Supervisor Flows
are both outlined on this link as well as simple Finger Hold flows.
My practice has involved these two flows as learned in the class
I took with Mary Burmeister in the late 1970’s.
There are numerous self-help Jin Shin videos and on-line
meetings around the world.
And I am thrown into the world of wondering yet once again
as I continue to wander.
…. a Lantern in the Sky, guiding my way as I wander?
The Osteopaths
In retrospect, the seventy-two hours
from 3:00 pm on Saturday, 13 June to 3:00 pm on Tuesday, June 16 are memorable.
The Saturday Jin Shin sleep ‘trigger’
witnessed a Sunday flare,
an unbelievable Monday osteopathic intraoral treatment in Phoenix,
and a surprising Tuesday osteopathic observation and treatment in Santa Cruz.
HELPING HANDS
Phoenix
My Monday appointment was extraordinary. I prefer to not have a treatment with my local osteopath the day before I leave for Santa Cruz… however, the extreme exacerbation on Sunday that rolled into Monday left me with no choice. I intuitively knew that this extreme reaction was proof that my body had responded to the sleep trigger in a profound way.
My surgical scar/fusion was once again a ‘piece’ of this puzzle. Ending the treatment intraorally with the comment “your palate on the left was completely locked with no motion’ gave me untold relief …both physically and emotionally.
I left the appointment feeling that I would be able to travel the next day. I was able to teach six students in the afternoon and went to bed most thankful for this exceptional osteopath who has been in my life for many years.
Santa Cruz
A delayed flight from Phoenix and arriving at 11:30 am made my San Jose airport experience very swift..no waiting at the Alamo counter nor sitting in a line of to check out of the airport rental garage!
I was in Santa Cruz and eating my turkey basil pesto sandwich overlooking the ocean on east Cliff
by 1:30. I had received a text from my osteopath before I left Phoenix: “Be sure to tell Tasha about the left palatine bone”.
My 3:00 appointment was initially a ‘catch up’ conversation since our previous May appointment. Since the recent diagnosis of glossopharyngeal neuroma,, my Santa Cruz osteopath was most vocal about a nerve injury needing relief. And, since breathing, chewing and swallowing cannot be avoided, there is ‘no relief’. Low-dose ketamine as well the drug gabapentin were brought into the conversation which hedged on accepting this ‘condition’. We also discussed DMSO and Ozone ear insufflation. The back-and-forth discussions we have are so appreciated; this ‘conversation/brain storming’ does not happen with my other doctors.
I was on a different page completely, and informed her that there was a LOT of change happening and explained what had occurred within the last three days. My opinion was that these events were too recent to evaluate the ‘effects’ within twenty-four hours of a ‘sleep trigger’ and osteopathic release.
And when her treatment began and she palpated my head, the surprise and excitement in her voice was unmistakable: “Your head is so different; it’s moving like it’s never moved before!” This was music to my ears, especially after the travel that had transpired since my treatment the day before. She was genuinely amazed and totally surprised.
And on Thursday morning, two days later, the motion in my head was still ‘amazing’. This is NOT my norm. More proof for me that something dramatic and positive was and is unfolding.
Time will tell..
Jin Shin and Saturday, June 20 came and went –
with deep relaxation and no trigger after a week of significant change.
I think the deep relaxation helps process the change that by body is experiencing.
And Sunday brought another flare, this time more extreme than the week before.
On Monday, my cranial osteopath found the right side now was presenting problems:
right palatine bone stuck and no motion in the right side of the head at all.
The relief of a treatment like this is astounding, unbelievable and incredulous.
The miracle of Hands.
All on I know is there is significant change unfolding and I’m trying to hang in there.
The extremes are miraculous and challenging.
“When accepted, suffering leads to wisdom, which is the perception
of the divine goodness and purpose in everything that happens.
Wisdom, peace and faith — that is to say, perfect trust in God — transform suffering into —
I won’t quite say ‘joy’ — but give it a meaning that takes away resistance
and one can then see a value in one’s suffering that is … well, God-like.”
Thomas Keating, Death & Dying Life & Living companion book